How much do I love him? Oh let me count the ways...

My baby is 5 weeks old. I have been a mother for 5 weeks. It's the weirdest thing but I really do love being Cole's mother. It still hasn't gotten old that my voice is comforting and soothing as well as my touch. Yesterday during his waketime I was singing to him and he stared at me without looking away the entire time. Then we got to talking and the way he was looking at me was so powerful. I told him how happy I was to be his mother and how happy I was that he chose to come to our family. I got emotional thinking about the eternal nature of that choice. Heavenly Father has so much confidence in me that he brought little Cole Dylan into our lives. Chase loves us so much and we're excited for him to finish school so he can be home with us all day everyday for the next 7 weeks. I don't know what I'm going to do when I have to go back to work. My joy is through him and his content nature. I admit when he's screaming and crying and won't go to sleep because it's the middle of the night and he thinks it's day or because he's too tired and he's gotten used to falling asleep in everyone's arms rather than on his bed, it's hard. I have a hard time with it. It's getting better but it's frustrating when I'm tired or when I've exhausted my efforts in getting him to sleep. I try to remember to pray. When I find myself praying him to sleep I often catch myself and also pray that I can have the patience and energy to meet his needs. The Lord is so mindful of me and my baby and I know that he's fully aware of our needs and when our energy has been exhausted. I'm grateful that I can include the Lord in my new role as mother and that he can guide me to be the example that I need to be to my children. I can't imagine taking on this role without his help. We went to church on Sunday in Swan Valley (my first time with Cole) and I'm grateful for the messages of sacrament meeting. Jacob Myler (Ben Myler's brother) spoke and he spoke about the basics of the gospel. He spoke and taught really simply but the spirit was strong. What a blessing to have the gospel in our lives during this time of havoc. Chase pointed out to me how interesting it is that Coley was born just 3 days after the legislation passed gay marriage nation wide. Cole has a strong spirit and he is going to be a leader among his peers as the world is ever changing. I love him and will support him in all he does (or at least try to). I know if I do my part the Lord will do His and Cole will be a blessing in many lives. He's already blessed two lives mine and his dad's. We can't imagine life without him. I love my baby boy!!!!!!

He's going to be a motor biker like his papa.

Those hands are escape artists.