Coley is 3 months

I have wanted to write and express my love for my little Coley bug. He's 3 months old and is quite the champ!

He loves to look around and see what all the exciting things are all about. His head will just go back and forth back and forth as he's trying to make sense of this new world. He loves to lay on Mom and Dad's bed and look up at the ceiling, I'm not sure what or who he sees up there but he's had many a conversation. His smiles still melt my heart especially the big open mouthed ones that make me just want to cry because of how cute it is. When he gets excited about something he lets out cute little spats that almost remind me of a little kitten spatting at a dog or something. It's a spat/cough. Really cute. He loves to suck on his fists. Naps are still rough... really short and hard to get to sleep. He does 8-9 hours at night between feedings which is heavenly. He has his bad days though, like last night waking at 12am and then again at 3am and not going back to sleep until 4:30am. I hope that was just a one time thing. We'll see tonight. He's starting to grab things a little bit. He loves going on walks, those spats come out for sure. He also loves to look at himself in the mirror, little sweetie. He is getting really strong where he can stand up on his legs for longer periods of time. When he first started he had such a concentrated face and his entire body would tense up trying to keep those legs muscles working. You could just feel the tensing of his body. He laughs a little bit and is getting such a cute personality.

I was able to be home last week while Chase had his first week back to school. I wanted to blog then but we currently only have one computer and that goes to school with Chase. I've had a long day today so I stole the computer so that I could unwind. It was such a fun week, I love my boy. I got to do crafts while he was sleeping, we would visit friends who also have babies. It was a really great week. I started work on Monday which was really difficult. I'm working part time but leaving that first day was really rough. I cried for like 10 min before I left and then off and on during my 10 min drive to work. Then Helen asks me how I'm doing and I lose it. Once I got lost in the work though I was ok. I started enjoying it a little bit actually. Feeling like maybe I could make this work for 3 months. I got home and Chase and I talked and we decided it should be short lived. It's what we feel is right but also Chase's schedule is about to get pretty busy and he won't be able to watch Cole and keep up with school work the way he would like to do both. So we decided mid-October and I think that sounds great. 4 hours felt like a long time to go without seeing my babe. It's a pretty good chunk of day that I skipped getting to see him each and every day. I know it's only been 4 days but still. I'm grateful to have a husband who's willing to make sacrifices and who is willing to support me in doing what's best. I know his Dad feels the importance of me working but I'm grateful that my husband can feel the importance of me being in the home with our little son. I love our family and I'm so happy we have our little Coley and that I get to be his mom.