Chase is Home!

So for an update about my mom from my last post she has been doing much better!!!

She is still in the hospital and her leg still looks terrible but she sounds and looks really good. My aunt Susan and Denise have both given me the opportunity to FaceTime with her and she loved getting to see Cole. The did a 2 way scope and everything looks good. To sum it up it seems that everything stemmed from her cellulitis and the mass infection throughout her whole body. As they have gotten that under control everything else has fallen into place.

Chase got home Friday night. It was exciting but also kind of hard. Marriage really has it's ups and downs. He's wonderful and I know he loves Cole and I, but sometimes his weaknesses are more than I want to bear. It has led me to my Savior a lot these last few days. There is something about arriving to the understanding of what the atonement really covers. I believe there is still MUCH that I need to learn about the Savior's sacrifice and love but when I do discover a new truth I feel so much peace enter my heart. During this time I have decided that I will study this particular aspect of the atonement, the power to heal and comfort. I remember learning a little bit about this when I was on my mission and my dad passed away. There is a scripture in Alma Chapter 7 verses 11-12 that struck my heart with so much truth at this time. I was struggling with my dad passing away and not feeling like I had the time to mourn that I needed. This scripture states that Christ suffered for our sins, AND our pains and afflictions! He suffered them so that he could understand how to console us when we experienced those exact pains and afflictions! So now as I pass through this trial I am reminded that Christ has been here, he knows how to heal me and what I need in order to keep moving forward. I look forward to the things that I will learn this coming week.

It's been a blessing having Chase home. He made me dinner tonight and I was like "wow, it's nice not having to think about dinner." It's been almost 2 weeks that it's been 100% up to me and it was a very nice break. Cole needs some more sleep training or something. He just cried for an hour before his nap. I picked him up and laid him on my chest and he was out! He's only been able to sleep while near us right now and it's rough. So I think we'll try to do another sleep training which is NEVER fun! He was such a perfect sleeper that he has me throwing my hands up to the heavens with these back tracking steps.

He turns 1 on Wednesday and when I reminisce that day it brings tears to my eyes. Can it really be a year ago that I first met this little love? I plan on getting way more sappy and sentimental the day of.

I just got done listening to Elder Eyring's talk from Oct 2007 titled "O Remember, Remember." It is worth some good study so that is also what I will be studying this week. He encourages us to take time every day to reflect on a moment throughout the day that we have seen the Lords hand in our lives or the lives of our children. He did this when his kids were young and has since distributed copies to his grown children and they have been able to use it in their lives today with the trials and daily struggles they face. What a wonderful thing for me to do now and a priceless gift to give to my children in years to come. I'm going to try to get Chase to do it with me and hope that it can help both of us reflect on the many blessings we do have and how aware God is of us.

https://www.lds.org/general-conference/2007/10/o-remember-remember?lang=eng